A Continuation
I hate minds that are closed to understanding because they believe they already posses it. If you believe that you truly understand something, how can you ever possibly be open to discovering the truth? Its not even on your screen because you can't conceive it. You can't think it or feel it. It just doesn't exist for you.
Condescending attitudes are especially frustrating to me. If I'm told my whole life that the sky is full of stars at night, but that I should NEVER under any circumstances actually LOOK at the sky to verify that the stars are actually there, how do I even know that its true? What if the sky is an empty blackness? What if there is no sky at all? Can I at least be allowed the courage to look up and see if in fact the stars are staring back at me?
It is this fundamental misunderstanding that has me so angry at the moment. Condemnation coming from a world view that can't even comprehend where I am in my head and heart. Anyone who can say in passing that they have legitimately contemplated the horror of their own existence, and are at peace with life have either never done such a thing at all, or posses some quality internally that I do not.
I'm looking to find what my heart is seeking, and my heart is seeking truth. No matter how ugly, I am seeking what is ACTUALLY real. Not what people would hypothetically postulate to be real. Not what they would like to real. Just that which is. Why? Because there is nothing else. Absolutely nothing else. Anyone who says differently is delusional. Period. Is it all in your mind? If its something that no matter how much you can reason, explain, and be sincere about what you BELIEVE to be true, if its just in your head...man come on. Look around you. THIS is life. No matter what you believe this is the ONLY arena that you have any experiential knowledge of. The stuff that you make up in your head about what you think could be, that stuff that nobody can prove, observe, quantify, that stuff that would never just occur whether you were there to make it up or not...bullshit baby.
You are a complex arrangement of matter that no can even begin to explain in a cognitive way. But thats it. You expect to experience something "other" in life? You have a culture containing ideas about what you can encounter in life? Do you believe in things that you would never even have any conception of unless you had somehow been told? Then you will encounter these things in life. You create your own perception of reality. Is it what is ultimately real? Is it all real to anyone else? Not really, no. But that does not invalidate it as your life experience. Just please, stop trying to force your little life-interpretation-bubble on everybody else. Stop thinking that you have the answers. You have the answers that, whether you know it or not, are the right ones for you that satisfy the intense and brutal reality of being a mortal.
You will blink out into oblivion happy because you have beliefs that tell you eternity as a conscious entity awaits you. At least when you enter total non-being and cease to exist you won't be around to be pissed off that you lived your life preparing for something that was never real to begin with.
Condescending attitudes are especially frustrating to me. If I'm told my whole life that the sky is full of stars at night, but that I should NEVER under any circumstances actually LOOK at the sky to verify that the stars are actually there, how do I even know that its true? What if the sky is an empty blackness? What if there is no sky at all? Can I at least be allowed the courage to look up and see if in fact the stars are staring back at me?
It is this fundamental misunderstanding that has me so angry at the moment. Condemnation coming from a world view that can't even comprehend where I am in my head and heart. Anyone who can say in passing that they have legitimately contemplated the horror of their own existence, and are at peace with life have either never done such a thing at all, or posses some quality internally that I do not.
I'm looking to find what my heart is seeking, and my heart is seeking truth. No matter how ugly, I am seeking what is ACTUALLY real. Not what people would hypothetically postulate to be real. Not what they would like to real. Just that which is. Why? Because there is nothing else. Absolutely nothing else. Anyone who says differently is delusional. Period. Is it all in your mind? If its something that no matter how much you can reason, explain, and be sincere about what you BELIEVE to be true, if its just in your head...man come on. Look around you. THIS is life. No matter what you believe this is the ONLY arena that you have any experiential knowledge of. The stuff that you make up in your head about what you think could be, that stuff that nobody can prove, observe, quantify, that stuff that would never just occur whether you were there to make it up or not...bullshit baby.
You are a complex arrangement of matter that no can even begin to explain in a cognitive way. But thats it. You expect to experience something "other" in life? You have a culture containing ideas about what you can encounter in life? Do you believe in things that you would never even have any conception of unless you had somehow been told? Then you will encounter these things in life. You create your own perception of reality. Is it what is ultimately real? Is it all real to anyone else? Not really, no. But that does not invalidate it as your life experience. Just please, stop trying to force your little life-interpretation-bubble on everybody else. Stop thinking that you have the answers. You have the answers that, whether you know it or not, are the right ones for you that satisfy the intense and brutal reality of being a mortal.
You will blink out into oblivion happy because you have beliefs that tell you eternity as a conscious entity awaits you. At least when you enter total non-being and cease to exist you won't be around to be pissed off that you lived your life preparing for something that was never real to begin with.
posted by Shaihulud at 7:25 pm
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